Back from AX! The mixed feelings over my enjoyment.

I spent an hour typing out my whole experience, but I'm sure that that would bore you to pieces, so I will just report the important parts. It'll be kind of random, but I went through a range of emotions. I was just glad that my friends from SF, the anime club, my Niko, and my online friends were there. I only come to meet people and for another reason. I got one out of two. Not bad. ^_^

Yes, as always, I believe it is the people who you are with that reflect your heart.



Friday - Dressed as Yuuko. (Molested by friend for the tight dress. *LOL*)
Very trafficky getting to Anaheim on Independence Day weekend. I checked into the wrong hotel and got to the right one. Got my badge, but I didn't get to go to the dealer's room very much except to say hi to people. Went to Boca di Peppo for some majorly good and huge desserts, but the Tiramisu was drenched in Rum. (And my specialty coffee drink was so mild compared to my usual Nigoro sake. XD Though not tipsy, my face was bright red.)
Couldn't go to sleep and walked around with a friend. Talked 'til 4 about life.

Saturday - Dressed as Youji. (Picture count for me: 4? Picture count for others: ^_____________^ <--not telling)
Went to dealer's room and bought -
^_______^ Gravi tank top!
2 Soryuuden dvds for 10
Yami boxed set for 40 <---I ALWAYS wanted this!

I took very nice shots of the Yamane-sensei full-length Viewfinder poster and molested it. ^^ But more than that, I got to see one of the guest I wanted to see...SEKI-SAMA! He was funny as usual! (My fav. part was that he was telling about his traumatic experience about a boy kissing him in elementary school. XDDDD) I was so dazed because not only did I get close up pics (courtesy of a friend because I get tongue-tied and shy, my true nature, when I really REALLY REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLY like someone)...


I. TOUCHED. HIM. YES, I SHOOK HIS HAND. I was shaking and in a shock that I was in fangirl mode saying, "I touched him. I touched him!"

But later that day, I got sick and slept for 10 hours...
I do not like crowds. I get jittery, panic, and grow faint whenever I spend time with lots of people for quite a period of time. (Inside, I'm a very shy person.) So, I need that alone time, which I had later on, but I was unable to meet with a lot of people. I was really sad and apologetic about that.


Sunday - Regular dress, but tried on my new net stocking and wanted to look cute!
I went to the Gravi and Clamp gatherings to get pics. (Unfortunately, I didn't find a bishie this year. *sighs*) But I went to the Maaya Sakamoto concert!

Maaya Sakamoto is one of my favorite singers. Her voice is still developing (well, imho opinion), but her emotions made me tingle in my seat. That means that I had a wonderful experience if I could feel that.
She doesn't talk to the crowd very much, but she is very cute, fun, and caring. You can feel her everywhere (and her fanboys were SO DYING as they screamed "I LOVE YOU~! I LOVE YOU MORE! I LOVE YOU THIIIIS MUCH! *makes motions with hands*).
She sang Yakusoku wa Iranai, Yubiwa, Platinum, Gravity and some others. (The ones I named are my faves.) And she even did an encore.
I truly admire her and was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO happy to make it because she was the guest I wanted to see the most. I have nothing but praise. ^_____^

She is special to me because I met one of my truly close friends through Escaflowne after I sang to him, "Yakusoku wa iranai" and he gave me, "Aoi Hitomi".

I met and hung with internet friends before Masquerade. Masquerade was VERRRY DISAPPOINTING this year. People that should have won, didn't. That's all I have to say before getting really annoyed. Again.

Afterwards, I hung with my best friend Niko (and my phone died...again). We went to meet with the Ucla anime club group. T______________T I don't like hanging with huge groups of people 'cause of personal reasons, but I couldn't tell them how happy I was to hang out, tired as I was. ^_^ They are a wonderful bunch, but whenever it's important, I get tongue-tied. I really love them even though I couldn't say so aloud. They always make me feel welcomed and comfortable.
That's why I read their palms and wanted to spend time with them. ^________________________^ THANKS GUYS! *is feeling mushy*

Monday - Dressed as Youji again. (Pictures...and more!)
Niko and I went shopping and found Ritsuka at the Loveless section! XD We also saw Jeldi-san when she asked for pics and I asked, "Aren't you...?" XD Niko and I also got to talk to the nice Central Park Lady about yaoi. ^____________^
There was rushing around to do so many things, and I didn't get to buy yaoi in the end, but I had lots of fun.



My thoughts on the con -
1) The organization was odd. I don't how to say it because it's changed so much since I first went in 1999. I always envied industry badge people, but now, I don't. They don't get priveleges anymore. It's sad. And the events - AMV and Masquerade aren't as cool as they used to be. ;_;
But what's been good is that there have been guests that I really want to see.

2) Vending - I need more yaoi 'cause it's no longer sold in Kino (or not as much as before). There's a good amt of stuff, but being a collector, I'm only happy by deals and random things now. I look for hard to get things these days.

3) Moody? Why? People.
I don't claim to be popular, but I talk to a looooot of people. I don't know how, but I found that I tend to push myself into people's comfort zones to get to know them, while pushing mine as well. (Whether or not that is successful, I still try.) I was just sad to see that there were some people I knew for years that treated me so indifferently. I was honestly hurt by this. I just wish some people would tell me where the hell I stand. I've been took "I hate you", "I don't trust you", and "You're a demon" before so to tell me clear things like that is quite okay to me. I like being told straight. And for me, who usually doesn't voice things like this, actually spilled out because I was so upset.
I saw another person whom I hadn't talked to for a long time. This person still wanted to 'meet' me even though she knew how much she hurt me by breaking an important promise. Don't you love people like that? I was so flustered because I'm too honest and ended up being too polite to shadow my distress.
Then, I had mixed feelings for someone so I didn't know if we should have hung or not. And I was unable to really say anything because 1) had no time, and 2) didn't know how to bring up such a weird subject.
Myself, I realized there are some bad parts I still have to get rid of. Those bitter memories still are so etched that I wonder if they'll ever go away. And one hope in going to con...well, I didn't see it, but I felt it...

But despite all this, I hung out with some of the best people in the world. I saw my best friend and I experienced cosplaying with someone else. I was with my friends S and J. They are truly kind and I don't know how to repay them for anything they've ever done. I hung with the ucla anime club group and they're so kick ass and funny, my stomach hurt. I saw my internet friends and talked with a few new people.
I do come just for the people: guests, online friends, rl friends, etc. They're the ones that make my experience so memorable as I type now with the fireworks blasting.

AX started as an interesting trip, but it's the only one that makes me feel like I'm in another world for a couple of days. It's my vacation from life.


As always, I have a happy memory on the 4th. (And um, I have to find more cheap yaoi and buy that Kotani Kinya cd! XD)

I hope you had a wonderful weekend as well...

AND thanks for Modoki, Jenkat! XD